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Aug. 6th, 2009

ella

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One year. Or almost.  I haven't put anything up on livejournal for almost a year.  Blogging from an entirely different location, experiencing something I never thought I'd do, can I say that I am a changed person? Maybe? 

6 days till I turn 24.  23 was an amazing year.  I loved my birthday despite having too many expectations that weren't met.  But still, in good taste.  I loved every minute of being 23, and having a lot of things happening to me.  But with my personality and spongelike ability to just absorb all of this so quickly, somehow after a year, it seems that things have gone old.

Is it time to take another step? Sigh lost. And since I have to log off..

Just some thoughts.

I want to stay in Hong Kong..
and
in a way, I'd love life to change
for the better

whatever better might be

Aug. 14th, 2008

charissa

Capacity

One thing I realized these past few days concerns capacity.

Sometimes we find ourselves saying, "punong puno na ako," "ayoko na," or "sige pwede pa, kaya ko pa" at different points, different situations in our lives.

Human capacity is unlike any container.  It is flexible for certain things, certain options, certain situations, or at time certain people.  We are, for example, more tolerant of the mistakes of close family members, or friends, or loved ones, compared to those you do not know, or simply just know by name or face. Sometimes we let things "overflow" but because we are experiencing it still and we are alive, I believe it can still be contained. 

The relational ability in a person is amazing.  It can connect separate streets, it can burn bridges, it can do simply anything to make someone change and realize their capacity. 

And when I say capacity, i mean our ability to use our senses and go deeply into ourselves to give or to take away certain things to or from certain people or situations.

Yesterday, I realized I had the capacity to just give.  Also, at the same time, I realized that I had the capacity to just throw a very large temper tantrum or just be angry enough to throw things on the floor.  I realized that I change depending on the situation, on the person, on the place, on everything in the world and the fact that I still emerge, alive, and breathing, no matter how scarred or how un-scarred.

I am alive.  That alone is a gift.  I am a jumping, bounding container that can go larger and larger or smaller and smaller depending on things given us.

The Bible always said that God will not give us things that we cannot bear.  And right now, I think it goes for things both good and bad.  Both burden and blessing.

And right now, no matter how circular this entry would read like, I am simply thankful for the ability to have a capacity.

XXX

Jun. 17th, 2008

tweety cute

?

im not sure what stresses me out more... the job... or the place...

Feb. 15th, 2008

Puppie

能不能让我陪着你走, 既然你说留不住你。。。

As usual, TV at home would mean Chinese movies, drama series...
So... I picked up this song from one of the shows we watch. :)

It's entitled

把悲伤留给自己

能不能让我陪着你走

回去的路有些黑暗
担心让你一个人走

我想是因为我不够温柔
不能分担你的忧愁
如果这样说不出口
就把遗憾放在心中

把我的悲伤留给自己
你的美丽让你带走
从此以后我再没有
快乐起来的理由
我想我可以忍住悲伤
可不可以你也会想起我

是不是可以牵你的手啊
从来没有这样要求
怕你难过转身就走
那就这样吧我会了解的

我想我可以忍住悲伤
假装生命中没有你
从此以后我在这里
日夜等待你的消息

能不能让我陪着你走
既然你说留不住你
无论你在天涯海角
时不时你偶尔会想起我

可不可以你也会想起我

可不可以

Aug. 13th, 2007

wed - side

It Wasn't Excellent, But It Was Good Nonetheless

Nothing should have gone wrong.
After all, it was a birthday.
It was my birthday.

I came home from Serendra the other night still feeling a little bit tired from the all nighter at the hospital last Friday. 11:30, I was out like a light on the bed, following my usual custom of being asleep before the midnight of the 12th.

I like waking up to the "your message memory is full" note that flashes on the phone screen. So, I see a couple of messages and some missed calls. A smile curling on my lips, "aawwww, thank you guys and gals, you remembered" Anyway, really, thanks so much for remembering. I appreciate it a lot.

So, wakey up, take a bath and go to church. Saw Tiffie and Charles (thanks for my cutie gift), and then attended service. All was normal. Until, I butt in. Or so, that was how it was placed. I prefer to call it being opinionated, and not liking the feeling of being stuck in the middle when you think the sides shouldn't even exist anyway.

So, I cried. Yes, on my birthday. And the funny thing is, I cried because I thought it was wrong. Ironically, I wasn't crying because I hurt, I was crying for someone else. Crazy, funny, yeah, but then, eventually, it stopped around early afternoon, after the third time. When did I get to be like that?

And so, "it's my party and I'll cry if I want to, You would cry too if it happened to you..."

My day starts again after all the misunderstandings have ended...

We start by visiting the hospital, taking a peek at grandma who was suddenly craving lechon. She was awake today and was talking fine. She threw out my cousin who was on duty with her last night. Threw him out at around 4 AM and he came back at around 6AM. What could he do? We watched The Buzz and enjoyed the latest chismis..

Oooohh, Yilmaz is back to fetch Ruffa. And Angel Locsin shares all about her move to the Kapamilya network. Amazing how Boy Abunda does that with Ateneo's Philo Pagmemeron under his belt. =p

Packed up to leave and tried to decide where to eat. Oh I had my choices...

President's at Ongpin
Penang Hill at Greenhills
and "somewhere" in Cubao so we can also watch Ratatouille with my sister's movie passes.

We ended up in Cubao, Cibo in Gateway (yum pasta) and did watch Ratatouille.

Remy was indeed cute. But when there were hordes of Remys (or Mickeys), oh God, different story.

So, there goes my day.

A little rocky at the start but went quite smoothly towards the end.

It wasn't excellent. But it was good nonetheless.

What would make it excellent, a friend would say?

I gave a pretty cheesy, honest answer (ask me if you want to know)

with a voice at the back of my mind shouting, "it's been quite a day, should I just say it to get it over with?" (if you want to know, ask me again. if you know, good for you, i overshared. lol)

with another voice saying, "are you OUT OF YOUR MIND?"

So, I guess the 2nd one won for now. But I think I did get my answer through or my thoughts.

My smallest wish for my birthday wasn't fulfilled, but it doesn't matter now.

I think I'm fine and it was a good birthday.

Not too many frills, and more tears than usual. I wasn't able to see a lot of my friends, but they remembered and I got a share of their exclusive time, whatever they may be doing.

So, thank you. It wasn't excellent, but it was good nonetheless.

And it wouldn't have been good without all of you.

Aug. 6th, 2007

tweety cute

The House of Slytherin (office boredom + monday blues)


Which Hogwarts house will you be sorted into?

Jun. 19th, 2007

Puppie

How Much of the Philippines have your Travelled?


My Lakbayan grade is C-!

How much of the Philippines have you visited? Find out atLakbayan!

Created by Eugene Villar.

Jun. 12th, 2007

chasey

song of the day

Artist: Wicked
Song: I'M Not That Girl
Album: Wicked (2003 Original Broadway Cast)

[" Wicked (2003 Original Broadway Cast) " CD]

Hands touch, eyes meet
Sudden silence, sudden heat
Hearts leap in a giddy whirl
He could be that boy
But I'm not that girl.

Don't dream too far
Don't lose sight of who you are
Don't remember that rush of joy
He could be that boy
I'm not that girl

Ev'ry so often we long to steal
To the land of what-might-have-been
But that doesn't soften the ache we feel
When reality sets back in

Blithe smile, lithe limb
She who's winsome, she wins him
Gold hair with gentle curl
That's the girl he chose
And heaven knows
I'm not that girl...

Don't wish, don't start
Wishing only wounds the heart
I wasn't born for the rose and pearl
There's a girl I know
He loves her so
I'm not that girl...

Apr. 17th, 2007

wed-front

...

If I can't rely on you, who can I rely on then?

Apr. 3rd, 2007

tweety cute

My Psyche is Red =p

Your Psyche is Red

You are bright, bold, energetic, and intense.
Your upbeat, zany energy inspires those who are down.
Spontaneous and playful, you also have a courageous and fearless side.

When you are too red: you are angry, overprotective, and truly scary.

When you don't have enough red: you are depleted and lifeless.

Mar. 7th, 2007

tweety cute

blog visit

uhhh hi guys, visit me at my other site http://sweetpsychoholic.blogspot.com :D

Feb. 8th, 2007

tweety cute

(no subject)

Your Scholastic Strength Is Developing Ideas

You can take a spark of inspiration and turn it into a full fledged concept.
You are talented at brainstorming, visualizing, organizing, and independent thinking.

You should major in:

Natural sciences
Computer science
Creative writing
Math
Architecture
Journalism
tweety cute

Bipolar!

You Are 68% Bipolar

You're more than moody - you're a bit unstable.
If your mood swings are effecting your life, you may need to seek help.
tweety cute

Sesame Street! - from Jella ;)

You Are Bert

Extremely serious and a little eccentric, people find you loveable - even if you don't love them!

You are usually feeling: Logical - you rarely let your emotions rule you

You are famous for: Being smart, a total neat freak, and maybe just a little evil

How you life your life: With passion, even if your odd passions (like bottle caps and pigeons) are baffling to others
ella

Celeb Lookalikes. haha

Feb. 1st, 2007

tweety

Kit Tatad's Open Letter to Erap

I read this article on the Philippine Daily Inquirer (Jan 30, 2007) Kit Tatad, a close ally of the former president Joseph Estrada makes a few points in his letter below and I think , he does make valid points here. It gets a bit personal somewhere in the middle but maybe it's unavoidable.

Enjoy the piece. It's a good read.


TATAD ASKS ERAP -- WHY DO YOU WANT TO DO THIS TO OUR PEOPLE?

President Joseph Ejercito Estrada
Chairman Emeritus
United Opposition

Dear Mr. President:

I write to make of record my position on certain issues related to the May 2007 senatorial elections. My only concern is the honor of our party and wellbeing of our people.

I shall start by recalling our UNO meeting on Polk Street on New Year's day (morning). Joining the President then were Mayor Jojo Binay, Ernie Maceda, Tito Sotto, Chiz Escudero, Boy Morales, and myself. Fred Lim and Baby Asistio joined later.

The meeting followed no set agenda or structure. Tito Sotto had much to say about his group which he believed should be on the UNO ticket. This included:

1. Tessie Aquino Oreta, who did not seek reelection after her first term ended in 2001;
2. Sonny Osmena, who ran unsuccessfully on the administration ticket in 2004;
3. Greg Honasan, who is now under detention on charges of rebellion following his highly publicized capture in Quezon City;
4. Loren Legarda, who wants to go back to the Senate at the cost of her vice presidential protest against Noli de Castro; and
5. Tito Sotto himself, who is back on entertainment tv in preparation for the campaign.

It was the first time I heard of this group earnestly wanting to run under the Opposition. Last year, they sent Johnny Rojas to represent them in our UNO meetings. From him we learned that they had been preparing to run, but that they would rather stay "somewhere in the middle," than identify themselves openly with the Opposition. Many of us (notably Jojo Binay) were particularly anxious about that statement. So I listened to Tito with undivided attention.

Tito and Chiz Escudero provided most of the conversation, with Ernie Maceda occasinoally interjecting. mention was made of:

1. Ping Lacson, who has abandoned his earlier decision to run for mayor of Manila and decided instead to seek reelection;
2. Ed Angara, who was reported to be putting [together] a "unity ticket," but in whose behalf Loren Legarda had reportedly telephoned the President for possible inclusion in the Opposition lineup;
3. Manny Villar and his group, which includes Joker Arroyo, Ralph Recto, and Kiko Pangilinan; and
4. Drilon's Liberal Party, which was reported to be pushing for Noynoy Aquino's inclusion in the UNO slate.

No one opposed Lacson's reentry, but no one pushed for Angara's inclusion. There was not much information about Villar's group -- not even Jojo Binay could say whether or not his friend Joker was running again. The President said he expects to meet shortly with Villar. Upon mention of Noynoy Aquino's name, Tito Sotto promptly cut in to say that between Noynoy and his auntie, Tessie Aquino Oreta, the latter would have better chances of winning. Fred Lim disagreed, saying that if Noynoy ran, his sister Kris Aquino, who is a tv host, would certanly ensure his winning.

I made two short interventions.

1. I proposed that UNO set some criteria or standards before admitting anyone who wants to ride the Opposition bandwagon. Some these people had junked the President without ceremony to support Mrs. Arroyo in 2001 and 2004; now they want UNO to give them a ride because it seems no longer profitable to be identified with Mrs. Arroyo, although they have not openly abandoned her. They want to collect on every throw of the dice even after they've lost the game. And we seem so eager to provide the revolving door for their crass opportunism. Has it never occurred to us that UNO, rather than Ed Angara whom UNO has excluded from its lineup, could end up putting together the "UNITY TICKET" that combined the best and the worst administration and opposition personalities?

2. With great pain, I expressed some reservations about drafting Koko Pimentel, Alan Peter Cayetano, and J.V. Ejercito as UNO candidates while Koko's father -- Senate Minority Leader Nene Pimentel, Alan Peter's sister -- Sen. Pia Cayetano, and J.V. Ejercito's half-brother -- Senator Jinggoy Estrada are sitting in the Senate until 2010. I jut could not accept the ideo of such bright young men doing what the "trapo to end all trapos" would probably not do, and for the Senate, with all its absurdities, to end up as a mad and shallow "Family Ball." Where Malacanang failed, UNO just might succeed -- we would abolish the Senate's reason for being.

I would have been proud to campaign for these young men if this one impediment did not exist, or if their next of kin gave up their Senate seats right now. But under the circumstances, the Titanic would sink if the three wonders came on board. I would rather encourage J.V. Ejercito to go for a third term as mayor of San Juan; Koko Pimentel to try his luck a second time in Cagayan de Oro, where he lost his mayoralty bid when his father was Senate President; and Alan Peter to do something exciting in Taguig in the meantime. They have all the time in the world towait; they can wait; they should wait.

I had to die in that meetng to be able to say the first line of a long sentence. I had already lost too many friends because of politics and I did not want to lose any more tha I already have. But the truth need to be said, and nobody else seemed to willing to say it. I had to take the risk. The ancients said it so well: Amicus Pluto, amicus Socrates, sed magis amica veritas -- "Plato is dear to me, Socrates is dear, but the truth is dearer still."

This was not a question of the Constitution or the law, but simply of ethics -- of what is right and proper. Article II, Sec. 26 of the 1987 Constitution says, "The State shall guarantee equal access to opportunities for public service, and prohibit political dynasties as may be defined by law." No enabling law has been enacted, but we have a serious moral duty to live by the spirit of the Constitution, and not make the problem of political dynasties any more messy and than it already is.

Political dynasties are either appreciated or hated, tolerated or feared. But even in the worst of cases, dynastic family members try simultaneously to occupy as many different offices as possible, or else they alternate or rotate in holding on to a particular office that allows them to exercise power. Never do they sit together in the same office at the same time. This is precisely what the three young men's senatorial bid threatens to alter.

The obvious assumption is that the voters are so pissed off with GMA that they will eat any kind of dung we give them. This is false. We cannot have such a very poor opinion of our people. In the end, they will prove us wrong, whatever the paid pollsters tell us. Thereafter, twelve or eight or six families could end up controlling all 24 seats. Husbands and wives, together with their sons and daughters, and uncles and aunties, why not, could end up running as one big gang.

You, Mr. President, and we, your friends in UNO, have a special responsibility to make sure this does not even begin to happen. The Senate is a small body of 24 members, representing a nation of 90 million Filipinos or about 18 million families. No single family has a vested right ot be represented there. Membership in the Senate is a privilege conferred by the people. It is a gift from them, except when cheats manage to rig the electoral process. No two senators from a single nuclear family had ever sat there until Jinggoy was elected in 2004, after his mother Sen. Loi Estrada had been elected in 2001. But this was the result of an extraordinary situation, an exception which proves the rule.

We all know how and why in happened. In 2001, the President was removed in a coup after his impeachment trial was cut short by a walkout of the prosecutors. He wanted to show -- and the Opposition and the voters agreed with him then -- that despite his removal he continued to enjoy popular support which the people were willing to translate into Senate seats for his wife Loi and his son Jinggoy. That, however, was to be a one-shot deal only, not to be used as a precedent or model.

Now that Senator Loi has decided in your words, "to retire" and become your "caregiver," that exceptional situation would cease to exists, and what many believe was truly an error would be finally cured. But were the President ot inflict his other son J.V. Ejercito on the UNO ticket, then he would be perpetuating the error, and encouraging others to follow his example, as seems to be happening now to th etwo otherwise bright young men -- Alan Peter Cayetano and Koko Pimentel.

Not only would the President be perpetuating an error, he would also be confirming the suspicion of those who reject any possibility of his assuming any leadership role in the post-Arroyo scenario before or after 2010 -- that his ideo of the national interest is serously impaired by his devotion to the personal. This is totally unnecessary and unfair.

We at UNO cannot possibly support this error without in effect telling the masses, whose champions we say we are, that, contrary to what we have been saying to them, and what we have led them to believe, our primary interest has nbever been to serve them but only to serve ourselves. We would thereby be throwing away our moral advantage, and making our party the most effective campaigners for the administration.

I have no doubt that if the administration tried to do what the leader of UNO wants to do now, we would be the first ones to shout to the high heavens in outrage and anger. Why then should we ever want to o it ourselves? Our people expect us to do better, and we have so assured them. Have we been lying to them all this time that we have been syaing that Mrs. Arroyo is the liar? If we are no better than the ones we denounce, what right have we to be here at all? To whom will our people turn if they see that the administration and the Opposition have cancelled eath other out? Would this not be the cruelest betrayal?

In the meeting, I waited to hear someone say I was wrong. I waited to be told that the reason or reasons for drafting the three next of kin of sitting senators were far beyond my ability to grasp in one short lifetime. But there was no effort to shoot down or refute my objection. No effort to explain why UNO has to have all the star fruits and the three wonders on this dream ticket. You will, therefore, understand why when you and Ernie Maceda agreed to release to the media the names of the three wonders as part of your proposed ticket, while my objection was waiting to be addressed, I felt that my long service to the Opposition and my presence in that meeting had just been annulled. That was the worst possible slap I had every received -- and from my party colleagues yet. For that reason, I decided that any future participation in any UNO activity on my part would be completely superfluous.

The real issue here is our moral integrity as the presumed alternative to the Arroyo government. I have fought for this, a little more than many of those you see in the street marches. After the 2001 coup, many simply decided to cross over to the administration. Many others decided to watch and see, to bury their heads in the sand, or to negotiate the terms of mutually beneficial coexistence. I decided to keep on clarifying the issues for myself, the Opposition, and the nation. Many of those now grovelling before you used to laugh at the very line which they now superficially spout for your pleasure. There were times when all I could hear was my lone solitary voice -- and that of Professor Alan Paguia, whose right to practice and even teach law has since been cancelled -- madly questioning President Arroyo's legitimacy after almost everyone else had caved in.

But I refused to back down. With the help of a few brave souls on the Citizens vs. Corruption Task Force, I continued to expose major scams in the government, including the P100-billion customs bonds scame, the P100-million DOTC airport land scam, the $2 million BSP fund diversion in Hong Kong, the misuse of OWA funds, and the P728-million Agricultural Modernization Fund scam, now known as the Jocjoc Bolante affair, which became cause celebre at the Senate in 2006, two years after I had exposed it at the start of the 2004 campaign.

That entailed a hevay price, and I paid it in full. In the 2004 elections, which I though was the best of my senatorial campaign, I was singled out for demolition. This was known to PMP and to KNP, whose members had read or heard about Oplan Checkmate, which detailed the plot against our presidential ticket and me, and which had surface at the start of the campaign. As always, you did what you could do to help, but if there was any party or coalition effort to save my candidacy from the Oplan, it never caught my attention.

On the campaign trai, radio-tv-coverage suddenly vanished as soon as it was my turn to speak. My campaign posters everywhere were brought down by the wrecking crew in less than 24 hourse. On election day, my name disappeared from the 12-man KNP senatorial slate on the Comelec official list of candidates posted in every voting b ooth to guide voters and appeared separately as the lone PMP senatorial candidate at the bottom of the printed form.

At the counting, my votes mysteriously shrank by something like 80% as they traveled from the barangay precinct to the national canvassing center. In contrast, the votes of one losing candidate were padded by at least 200% to make the recipient on of the top senatorial winners. Ultimately, my recorded "historic vote" a term known to seasoned political players and analysts -- which in two successful senatorial elections had risen to close to 11million by 1995 was savaged to nearly half that number.

Today, I am a defendant in a criminal libel case filed by the First Gentleman in a Manila court arising from a 2004 post-election newspaper article which attributes to me certain statements that not even slightly libelous. My name had been dropped from the complaint in 2004 but was reinstated in 2006, upon motion of the complainant -- after the supposed crme had legally prescribed.

All this is par for the course. None of it should have been mentioned here were I not obliged to show that I have earned the right to be heard on the basic morality of our cause.

Before I left Polk street, you came over to say that yould like to have me included in your senatorial slate. I begged off. "Please don't, Mr. President," I said. You tried to insist, but I pleaded, "Please, Mr. President." You did not say so, but you seemed to be under the impression that I was objecting to certain candidacies because I wanted to be a candidate myself. That was not the point at all. It was a total misimpression. We should know each other well enough by now for you to know if there was anything I have ever done or would ever do just for my own self-interest.

My one consuming desire is to see the country return to a state of normalcy where all can live a morally upright life, and one does not have to be part of a power structure to get the respect he deserves. Where law and justice are one and truth presides, where deserving individuals are elected to high office because the office needs them, and not because they need the office. For this reason, I wanted to see electoral reforms before the parade of celebrities and popular incompetenets begins. Thus, I was for boycotting the elections if no electoral reforms were put in place. However, tht position was quickly vaporized after a swarm of ambitious innocents, whose idea of national politics consists purely of packing public office with synthetic personalities, started hyping the Oppositions alleged ability to give Mrs. Arroyo the same "thumping" the Democrats gave the Republicans in the last U.S. elections. This was capped by the President's premature announcement of his dream ticket.

This, I thought was a serious mistake, as did a number of respected foreign analysts. Under these circumstances, I could not bring myself to consider running again, even though I honestly believe that I have the right and duty to regain the Senate seat which was fraudulently taken away from me in 2004. So when you asked me why I would not want to join your ticket, I said: first, becuase I wasnt sure elections would be held -- (to date, there is still no budget); second, because I wasn't sure the elections would be honest, assuming they were held -- we have not insisted on electoral reforms and no reforms have been put in place; third, because I did not believe I could be part of a ticket whose other candidates I could not even endorse to the public. There were two other reasons: I could not allow it to interrupt the joys of grandparenting, and I need to honor some publishing commitments which could no longer be delayed.

This, for me tha, is a new turning point. I began my political career in 1969, when I was appointed to the Cabinet at 29, the youngest such appointee in our history. Through the years, I have fought many fights, many of them lost causes. I have not learned to exchange principle for personal pleasure or profit, and I have always paid the price. This allows me to stand on my own, with no fear of powers or personalities, of the dark or of the light; to snore quietly in my sleep every night in the hope of waking up in the monring to a loving and merciful God; to speak up whenever truth demands a witness, and something that needs to be said in speech and in silence is not being said.

I would be untrue to myself if I said that what the leaders of UNO propose to do with their "UNITY TICKET" is right. It is most certainly not, and I will not dishonor our friendship by keeping silent or pretending that it is right, or of little or no consequence. I want to thank yo for your friendship and for the many personal kindnesses you have extended to me and to my wife, in the course of that friendship. We shall remain friends for as long as we both put ourselves and our personal interests int he sevice of truth, justice and the common good.

May the good Lord guide you always,

Sincerely yours,

FRANCISCO S. TATAD

Jan. 31st, 2007

wed - side

ehem

Went to admu yesterday...Missed Manang's food so much that I just had to go and eat.
Thanks to Eug for being in Shopwise Libis! Yey... Lechon Kawali, Kalabasa & Sitaw (also known as gulay) + the breeze! (Also saw the SOM Mall that looked like a food court but that's another story)

Thank God for fresh air yesterday. Loved it loved it loved it.

Met up with June, Chong, and Care...

Care was like, "What are you doing in my school, mommy?....Parents are distractions..."

Today, yeah, despite their pivotal role in our lives...

Sometimes, they just are distractions.

But then, pivotal nga.

Life.

Jan. 15th, 2007

chasey

(no subject)

And sometimes, you just want a hug from a person you know won't give it to you the way you want it.

Jan. 6th, 2007

tweety cute

2006 reflections...

Fourteen minutes of the year 2007 silently (in a way) has passed. Sitting in a rented villa here in Fontana, (I know, I know, I’m not in Baguio – 1st time in more than 10 years) I reflect over the past year like probably everyone else in the world. I plug in my earphones and listen to old music, my mom and sister’s phones ringing… ironically not mine. (Ha! Bitter till the end. =p)

2006 for me was a year of changes, turning points, opportunities, consequences and choices.

I started the year, a student; the mid-part of the year a professional bum and the latter part a “professional.” Wow naman shet, ang daming milestone kuno! Haha Right now, I actually can’t remember how old I am. Oh NO!

I remember relishing the last months of school. Sitting in our favorite corner in the library (and no, we don’t study, we just sit), or bugging Eug to go to National just to buy an Archie to make me feel a little better when I’m stressed. Cramming my minor in Chinese studies and having Law and Eug as audiences to the awarding ceremonies (parents daw sila at kawawa naman daw ako), getting Briggie for Hokkien 2 Class and ended up having Nats and Shoba as classmates, getting a teacher who sounded so much like me, it freaked me out…Lots of other things I can’t seem to put into words right now but the last sem of my college life was indeed something to hold on to.

March 2006 ended university officially. Welcome to the real world as they called it. We then began our journey to another world. Branded as an Atenean like cows coming from a barn.

Just like thousands of others coming from other barns (Blue, Green, Yellow, Red, whatever available combination…), we faced bum-world. Or maybe that’s just me. I got the chance to travel. Some of my friends called it hitching on a love boat when I decided to go for the 3-week Taiwan tour just for kicks and “detox”. Well, I came home proving them (or Cathy actually) wrong. Haha. I came home with a bunch of pictures, detoxed from my noisy, stressful world, and single – marking the end of the 2-year promise I have made to myself to clear my mind and my heart of something and someone. May 23, 2006.

I remember going straight to Mall of Asia after landing for around 2 hours. The biggest mall in Asia has opened and of course, I just had to see it… A couple of big typhoons came a few months later (Milenyo and Reming, I think and some others) and flooded the mall, busted the big signs… The wave-design of the mall, seemed to have served its purpose – as waves… And now, they started showing dolphin shows at the mall – I wonder where the water comes from. Manila Bay perhaps?

How’s the bay you ask? Still dirty.

Are you still reading? Lalalalala…

Bum world wasn’t as fun. People calling me while I was out of the country that they got jobs already weren’t helping. I remember there was even a time I cried because I seemed to have lost all my options. Yeah, I cried because I thought someone might not have deserved a certain job. But all’s fine now. Through the months, I learned that indeed, the Lord God has wonderful wonderful interesting plans for all of us, for me. I’m now working at IBM Business Services doing something similar to my org work of 4 years! Once an AIESECer, always an AIESECer. ;) Lang ya. Hahaha Exchange parin hanggang ngayon ang atupag. haha

Job hunting was coupled with a pending scholarship application to Beijing, China. It was a chance thing. One of my teachers gave me the form and I decided to try. I mean, what the heck, right? The want to stay and get a job and to further detoxify myself from my noisy world was a big tug-of-war. I eventually decided based on 2 words lent to me by another good friend. He said, “then what?” and not being able to answer that kind of question was a major reason enough to stay. Couple that with a few calls, attending interviews while fixing the visa and an upcoming controversial wedding (courtesy of my brother), then it’s a surefire formula for staying. Tsaka sabi ni Patrick, “alam mo Cha, kung magliliwaliw ka lang rin don, pwede ba, mag-stay ka nalang dito at kumita ng pera!” …

My brother got married last October 7, 2006. Oh, if you know the story, good for you. I will not elaborate here. If not, then, Happy New Year to you! But then, it was a mix of happy, sad, stressful, exciting…..oh scrap that, it was a stressful event for me. But God had His ways of supporting me and I appreciated His support style very much for this event. So for that, I have no more complaints and am thankful, and grateful. My brother and my sister-in-law are now happy and everything’s kinda falling into place, bit by bit, so far. ;)

Damn, dead end. No connecting thought! Haha….

Commercial muna: Do you know that Saddam Hussein died already? It’s so so sad… He was hanged .Yeah, I am actually mourning the death of Saddam. Like the way I “respect” Hitler and Marcos, I think Saddam deserves the same. He had that ability in him to persuade his people to do things for him. So anyway, he’s dead.

So are a lot of people. I think ’06 was also somehow a year of deaths, losses… A very good friend (a former teacher), lost her baby just recently to leukemia, it was a very very sad event. Another friend lost his brother due to heart attack.. at 29 years old…

What is the world coming to?

An hour of 2007 has passed. The neighbors are quiet. Fireworks all gone, stomachs all filled.

The silence must be enough to lull me to sleep. But I can’t seem to find the right words to close this entry…

2006...gone…turning points…milestones...consequences…choices…

It was a year of ”wins, loses and draws”…”crashing and burning”, for one particular choice I’ve made…

It was full of gains, loses, “*faints*”, “OMGs”, “eeks”, and a lot of other things.

But then, the other things can be reserved for 2007,

and “let’s see what happens…” (-- a line that came from a dream that will forever be remembered…)

Happy New Year to All of You.

To everyone: Thank you so so much for being a part of my year and for making it as eventful. You are not forgotten even if it’s not mentioned above.

And well, for special mentions…you know who all of you are.

So, thanks*tight hugs*mwah*mwah!*

Happy new year to you and your family.

Cheers!

Cha/0118H/010107

Dec. 12th, 2006

charissa

Today is a Day

It feels like a Friday. Maraming taong wala sa opisina. Hindi ko rin alam kung nasan sila. Sabagay, wala rin kasi ako kaninang umaga.

I went to the DFA this morning to renew my suddenly-expired passport due to "mutilation," also defined as nasira yung seal above the picture. e hindi naman sinasadyang gawin yun. Anyways, 150 + 180 + 750 = 1,080 later, I finally had my passport renewed. The next step? Plead for in-day processing.

I failed. Tsk. The best I could get was to get my passport processed and ready for pick-up tomorrow at 1 PM. So, it's a rush thing tomorrow. Hopefully, the planned trip (when I say planned, it means, we have confirmed plane tickets, and rooms) will push through because of some hitches and glitches on the way that happened. Anyway, there...it's back to DFA for me.

So basta, hopefully after all the effort, + later efforts pa (visa processing and coordinating with China), the trip will push through. SO please help pray ;). It's scheduled for the 17th - 24th, in the freezing city of Beijing, China Bow.

Hmmm what else? This morning, I received a variety (yes variety talaga) of text messages from different people...

One was asking if I was free for breakfast because he worked overnight in a nearby hypermarket. (I would've taken up the offer but I was late for DFA)

The other was just sad... announcing the death of a dear friend's brother :( He had a heart attack at the young age of 29. Sniff...May his soul rest in peace.

And other that said, "I'll be awake early morning.." and this person is NEVER awake on early mornings...

Crazy day... but nonethelss fruitful. I think.

So there. blah. just sharing my day and my thoughts.

I wanna go back to sleep.

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